Confessions

Fess up!
Mark your confessions:

[ ] I'm afraid of silence.

[ ] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.

[ ] I am really ticklish.

[ x ] I'm afraid of the dark.

[ ] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night.

[ ] I can't sleep in a room if the door is open

[ ] I am homosexual.

[X] I believe in true love.

[ ] I've run away from home.

[ ] I listen to political music.

[x] I collect comic books. (Only through my husband.)

[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.

[X] I've stayed out all night.

[ ] I open up to others easily.

[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.

[X] I watch the news. (I look for snow days.)

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs

[X] I love Disney movies.

[X] I am a sucker for green eyes.

[x] I am a sucker for brown eyes

[X] I am a sucker for blue eyes

[ ] I don't kill bugs.

[X] I curse

[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.

[ ] I've slipped and fell in public

[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.

[ ] I love Spam.

[ ] I bake well.

[x] I have worn pajamas to class.

[ ] I have owned something from Abercrombie.

[X] I want a better job.

[x] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.

[ ] I love Dr. Phil.

[X] I like/love someone.

[ ] I am guilty of TypiNg LikE thiS...

[X] I am self-conscious.

[X] I love to laugh.

[X] I have tried alcohol.

[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.

[ ] I have tried a cigarette.

[ ]I have smoked a pack in one day

[x] I loved Lord of the Flies

[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.

[ ] I can't swallow pills

[x] I have a lot of scars.

[ ] can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. (Mice on the otherhand...)

[X] I love chocolate.

[ ] I bite my nails.

[X] I play computer games when I'm bored.

[X] Gotten lost in the city.

[ ]Thought of suicide before.

[X] Seen a shooting star...

[ ] Had a menage a trois.

[x] Gone out in public in my pajamas.

[x]Have kissed a stranger.

[ ]Have kissed someone really strange....

[X] Hugged a stranger.

[ ] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of a different sex

[ ] Been in a fist fight.

[ ] Been arrested.

[ ] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose.

[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator. (I was young.)

[ ] Made out in an elevator.

[ ] Swore at Liberace.

[ ]Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose

[ ] Been skydiving.

[ ] Been bungee jumping.

[X] gotten stiches.

[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.

[ ] Bitten someone

[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.

[x] Gotten the chicken pox.

[x] Crashed into a car. (It crashed into me)

[ ] been to Japan. (I'd like to though)

[X] Ridden in a taxi.

[ ] Shoplifted.

[ ] Been fired.

[X] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.

[ ] Stole something from your job.

[ ] Gone on a blind date.

[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach --

[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.

[x] Been to Europe.

[ ] Slept with a co-worker, and/or employee. --

[ ] Been married. (Currently am)

[ ] Gotten divorced.

[X] Saw someone/something dying. (Unfortunately, someone)

[ ] have a list of people you want to kill.

[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day

[x] Been to Canada.

[X] Been on a Plane.

[X] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

[ ] Thrown up in a bar.

[X] Eaten sushi.

[x] Been skiing.

[X] Been ice skating

[x] Cried in public.

[ ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.

[X] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.

[X] Thought of someone almost 24/7

[ ] Hated the world

Pass this on with your own confessions.

Inconsiderate People

I hate inconsiderate people; people who don't take other's feelings in consideration before speaking. People who make light-hearted comments about something that has only broken you days before. And what's worse, you are working your ass off, doing these inconsiderate people a huge fucking favor, and not only is there no help or thank you, but they kick your in the gut when you're already down.

So now what? Do I ignore that anything has ever happened? Do I avoid the inconsiderate? Do I engage and stand up for my feelings? I guess right now, I'll vent so that if I do engage, I do not become an inconsiderate person who says something without thinking of other's feelings.

"What a waste of precipitation!"

So last weekend, the wonders of snow blessed Richmond, but unfortunately did not come quick enough nor stay long enough to make much difference in the world of public education. After learning about water and weather over the past month, one of my students affectionately used his vocabulary correctly when saying "What a waste of precipitation!" I couldn't agree with him more. To top it all off, as of today, the wonderful weather.com is predicting snow showers again for the weekend and nothing much for the week when it is really needed.

One week later

Over the past week, I have had multiple ups and downs. On the upside, I did have a wonderful snowday on Wednesday and the rest of the week went smoothly as can be expected at school. However, by Friday I had an infection and spent the whole afternoon along with most of the weekend in bed. I decided to take Monday and Tuesday off school and made a doctors appointment for Tuesday. I basically have a virus and my ears are infected so now that I'm on antibodies, I'll be going back to school tomorrow. On the downside (besides going back to work) my car needs a new transmission. So with car costs and rental costs it has been a little stressful also. Basically all of our savings are going to be put into my car. It sucks when you are trying to save money to have to spend it all at once.

Forcast says it will be a dismal Tuesday

This weekend went well. Dustin and I stayed in town for once and finally got the last of our Christmas gifts exchanged. I got some new shoes (which rock) some shirts (all under 3 dollars 'yes I did say 3 dollars') and a corduroy blazer. Dustin also came away with a sexy corduroy blazer, a pair of jeans, and a new pair of shoes. On Sunday, we had some friends over to watch the Steelers whip up on the Colts and spent Monday watching rented movies. All in all it was very relaxing.

Tonight was the first night of my online class and because technology sucks, I couldn't stay online for more then a minute in the virtual classroom before getting booted. It sucks especially since I guess there is nothing I can do about it and the class meets online every Tuesday. So I guess my online class has just become my coffee house class in hopes that my internet problems were the fucking internet instead of my laptop. (I would call my laptop and naughty name, but it would probably break on me and then I would be royally screwed.) The only glimmer of a light at the end of my tunnel is that the weather is supposed to become icy and dreadful. That gives me hope for a snow day tomorrow. Wish me luck!

A little "Sound of Music"

So here it is the wonderful masterpiece adapted by my coworker from The Sound of Music about our cunt of a principal.

How do you solve a problem like our Lisa?
How do you keep ambition wrestled down?
How do you find a word that stands for Lisa?
An overachiever? A pain in the ass? A wound?

Many a thing you know you'd like to tell her.
Many a thing she ought to understand.
But when she sits in an office all day
She forgets any other way
Than whatever latest scheme she's got planned.
Oh how do you solve a problem like our Lisa?
Why does she hold our weekends in her hand?

When I'm with her I'm confused,
Out of focused and bemused,
And I never know exactly where I stand.
Unpredictable as the weather,
Never satisfied with better,
She's a kiss-up, she's an artist, she's a ham.
She's obsessed with any test,
And she never let's us rest,
Seems like forms and lengthy meetings are her world.
She is pitied, she's reviled,
Tries to care for every child,
She's a headache, she's our mentor, she's a pearl.

Oh, How do you solve a problem like our Lisa?
How do you keep your spirit safe and sound?
What will you put upon my head, now, Lisa?
A new obligation? A friendly relation? A crown?

Many a thing you know you'd like to tell her.
Many a thing she ought to understand.
But how do you find a way
To say what you need to say
Without having a chilly comment make off-hand?
Oh, how do you solve a problem like our Lisa?
Sometimes I want to quit or get canned.

New words

These are the new words to describe my principal:

Teacher eating, fuck needing, cunt!

I just thought I would share them with everyone. Enjoy!

At least I'm Not Alone

So I have found that the sanity of school has spread and I don't feel so alone in the hatred of the place known as hell. One of my fellow teachers broke down crying today and another wrote a song similar to that of the one I wrote on Scott's blog. If she emails the song to me I'll make sure to post it. What is funny is that the song writing teacher did NOT know that I had already written a masterpiece about my frightening life as a teacher. I guess we all have creative tension that needs to escape.

By the way my fellow reader(s) are not replying to jobs they think I should have, please reply!!

New Jobs:
Party Planner
Conversation Heart Taster
Dental Hygenist
A Watcher for the Slayer

Thanks for coming

We had a great get together for the Steelers/Bengals game. I wanted to thank everyone for coming and propose more get-togethers where we can watch movies or sports games or even play games. I miss playing Nerts at night. It was a great stress reliever and its a great way to get to know people (it's how Dustin and I got to know one another!)

More Jobs:
chef
pharmacist
translator
personal assistant

Career Choices

I hate that my job is so stressful. When I decided to become a teacher I wanted teach children. However what they don't tell you in college is that besides lesson plans and grading papers you have to spend hours and hours on end in meetings and filling out spreadsheets that show how well the students are testing. Its killing me. All the stupid paper work and the microscope that keeps getting so close that it is squishing me is going to burn me out. So, I've decided to come up with other career ideas. Please let me know if you have any ideas for careers that you might think I would be good at. Here are some choices I've thought of so far.

Horticulturist (not sure if that is a word.)
Anchor-person
Meteorologist
Interpreter
Librarian
Book Store Owner
and finally, The Slayer

Let me know if you can think of anything else that you think I would be good at.

The winter break has officially began and so far being lazy has been my main focus. Monday I spent most of the day sleeping and watching daytime television. I love ER reruns. At night Scott, Steph, Dustin and I made cookies all night. It went over really well and Dustin and I came home having made several dozen of a couple different kinds of cookies. However, today I am getting back on my diet, so I won't be eating much. The past two weeks I have pretty much just eaten whatever I wanted and gained a couple of pounds in the process. However my total at the moment is just over 15 pounds. I am hoping to get up to a total of 20 lost pounds by the end of January. I set a goal (with help from my husband) that if I can maintain a 20 pound loss for 2 weeks I will get an appointment for a massage. We'll see how well I do while traveling through the holidays.

Today I am heading to my mom's work to volunteer for their Christmas parties. I really love volunteering there. I just wish it wasn't so far away. I am going to have to spend a night away from Dustin and Quinn and I hate being away from them, even if it is for only one night. I am such a home-body. I never want a job where I am going to be away from my family at all. My Dad travels overnight all the time for the army. I could never do that. I love eating breakfast and dinner with Dustin and Quinn at my side.

Sonic Buffy

Sonic Willow and Tara

Tag

10 years ago: In the fall of 1995, I was starting my freshmen year of highschool. I really enjoyed playing soccer and being in the "pit" in marching band.

5 years ago:In the fall of 2000, I was starting my sophmore year of college. I had plans to be a musician and tour all over the world.

yesterday:I went to school around 6:15 AM and taught classes until 2:00, sat with students who had detention until 3:30, graded open response until 4:30, came home to leave for Weight Watchers, found out I've lost a total of 12.4 pounds, met Dustin, mom, Jarred and Kelly at Oh Chucks for dinner, mom took us to Wal-Mart for a free grocery trip on her, and then we went to Dairy Queen for my weekly Cherry Chocolate Love Blizzard, came home to unload groceries, and off to sleep.

5 snacks I enjoy: Edy's Swiss Orange Ice Cream, Applebee's Nachos, dry Trix cereal, Rally's Fries, and Red Vines Candy

5 songs I know all the words to: Under Your Spell sung by Amber Benson on season six of Buffy, To Martha by The Smashing Pumpkins ; At Last sung by Etta James; You Learn by Alanis Morissette; and Everything by Lifehouse.

5 things i would do with 100 million dollars: Buy a house that was complete, buy new hybrid cars for Dustin and me, pay off loans and bills, help any of my family finished their college degrees, invest the rest and hopefully retire early with Dustin.

5 places I would run away to: France, Ireland, Japan, Australia, and any Sandals resort (Dustin would have to be with me for all these trips.)

5 things I would never wear: daisy dukes, go go boots, spandex shorts, spiked heeled boots, or a leather cowboy vest

5 tv shows that I love: Buffy, Roswell, Smallville, Scrubs, Boy Meets World

5 bad habits: popping my knuckles, picking scabs, working too late at school, rarely shaving my legs, and leaving my bra where ever I take it off (which is usually the living room.)

5 biggest joys: My husband, my family, my Quinny, my home, my friends

5 favorite toys: my Megan doll that my grandmother made, my Harry Potter book collection, my Buffy DVD collection, my Katie porcelain doll, and my laptop (only when it is working perfectly)

Total of 12.4

So I have finally passed the ten pound mark. After 7 weeks of dieting, I have now lost a grand total of 12.4 pounds. I'm actually kind of surprised that I have kept it up this long. I honestly thought I would have given up by now and continued to be depressed and overweight. However, I am determined. I really want to loose quite a lot more weight. I figure by the time I get down to my goal, it will be just in time for me to get pregnant and gain in all back. :) I guess that's life :0)

Another 1

Well the highlights of my week have included receiving my brown belt in Karate and loosing one more pound this week. However, my lowlights are taking over. School is pretty stressful and the "higher-ups" add more and more for teachers to do and yet don't give us any time to do it. I have been staying at school until about 5:00 everyday. When you go in at 6:30AM, that's a lot. And yet I still don't feel like I am even close to getting things done. I feel like I am going to crack and we've only had 5 days of school. I guess all I can sing is, "Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow." I also found out that my step-dad has a lump that his doctor couldn't remove because it bled so much. So he is now headed to a specialist to have it removed and sent for testing to see what it is. I am so worried. I unfortunately can't think of anything but the worse. It makes me so stressed and worried.

The night before...

3 more pounds making the grand total 6.8. I'm very excited and hope to keep it up.

Wish me luck on my first day of schoo tomorrow!

1 more

I lost one more pound last week. I am pretty impressed especially since I went to Gatlinburg. I saved all of my flex points for the weekend away and it paid off. My grand total is 3.8. Wish me luck for this week.

Likes:
broccoli with fat-free mayo
sherbert
watching back to back ER
watching Quinn sleep
Star Girl by Jerry Spinelli

2.8 sounds good to me

After a week of dieting, I lost 2.8 pounds. I am so thrilled. I really stuck to my diet and never cheated once. One week down. Hopefully this week will go over equally as well. I'll keep you updated.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JARRED!!

So Far So Good

I have successfully been on my diet for two days. Compared to the diet my doctor had me on, I feel pretty full most of the time. I really think when school starts and I don't have time to snack, I'll be able to keep up with it even more.

Likes:
sour cream
reading children's books
watching illusions
date books
sun rises